...you know, those thoughts that keep you awake.
mine tonight:
- how am i going to figure out this trip to europe. three destinations in mind: iceland, italy and germany.
- stupid springy mattress! i very much need a new one.
- when was it ok that i develop allergies?? what the fook am i allergic to?
- how my friend in california made out today (no pun intended) meeting a new "friend"
- why there is one odd hair on my left forearm that doesn't stop growing
- i need to clean my truck!!
- excited about friend coming to visit for spring break week!! (must buy groceries)
- did i drink enough water today?
yah, not terribly exciting... nothing like some nights. im not one to complain a lot. heh, ok i am. but in reality, i never really sit and think at night 'what have i done with my life and why am i here???' i rather enjoy where i currently am and am rather happy how i got here and what i've done to make life what it is. there are moments when those thoughts that keep me awake take on their own life and wander into the places that are ruled by the "what if"... sometimes its fun, sometimes its scary. i'm reminded of the movie "sliding doors" with gwenyth paltrow. what if i never caught that train and those sliding doors closed before i got through them?... these times, my friends, are when stories are written... unfortunately, my ability is not in writing. if i were to write from these times i could never bring them justice. they would stories wrought with discombobulated plotlines and probably a "lost highway" meets "a clockwork orange" meets "meet the fockers" with a soundtrack mix of "pink floyd", "opeth", "gordon lightfoot" and "my dying bride". not for the faint of heart. i've always wanted to write. to be sitting alone in a cabin tucked into the mountains somewhere. or on a lake in the middle of nowhere. regardless, very "misery"-ish. just me and a typewriter (i love the sounds typewriters make). sipping tea and knowing exactly what i wanted to say... *
mulls* maybe some day i'll surprise some of you... and then you'll be sorry...
soundtrack: Therion - [Vovin #01] The Rise Of Sodom And Gomorrah [6:45]
what a brilliant song to listen to while awake at this hour...
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