Saturday, December 25, 2010

My Pheebs...

Last night... on Xmas Eve... I rushed my dog, Pheebs, to the animal hospital as she couldn't walk and was in some obvious stress... An hour and a half later I came home without her... Not so shocked and yet still shocked. She died from hemangiosarcoma that was formed around her heart and started bleeding out. There were no signs, no warnings... Just the knowledge that her brother died in October from the same form of cancer, but this was on his spleen and he lived for 2 months after his diagnosis. I didn't have that luxury. I couldn't bring her home and spoil her silly for the rest of her short life. I couldn't throw the ball around with her one last time. Or cuddle with her on the couch. Give her handfuls of treats. Give her too many kisses. I held her in my arms and told her over and over and over what a good doggies she is... How Mummy loved her so so much... Gave her neck scratches and kissed her goodbye as she went still... *sigh*

Her sister Zoe has been looking for her, waiting for her, watching the door for her, checking all the floors in the house for her... It breaks my heart.

She leaned on her so much and they were best friends.

I love you forever my ginger girl... xoxoxo Nugget

March 5, 2001 - December 24, 2010