today's wish...

sometimes, it would be nice to become invisible and muted to everyone else. to blend into the background and just listen to the people around you and hear what they're saying. unedited. to be able to go through parts of life unnoticed and maybe see what or who would be affected by your absence. to not have to maintain the polite exterior that society expects of you.

would you want to hear what they say? im a realist. i think i already know what most people would say about me. sure, sure, there are the nice things. even some wonderful ones in there too.... but i know that im not always kind, im not always gentle. i have my moments of frustration and pain and anger; just like EVERYONE else. im hormonal, im emotional and im not good at hiding a lot of it, although i know i try.
im not always a big fucking ray of sunshine!